For the last week, Chase has had a terrible cough! Then last night, I woke to Livvy gasping for air- wheezing away! Then followed choking and vomiting. Every labored breath she took gave me so much anxiety! My little baby couldn't breathe! It was terrifying! Wade and I tended to her as best as we could and then I took her to the doctor this morning. The prognosis I already knew~ RSV. It has been flocking around our neighborhood and schools lately. I was hoping to avoid it, but I think it had it's eye on us for a while!
I've decided that winter to me is like a
really bad, unhealthy relationship. When I first met Him (Winter), he was new, exciting, beautiful. So, I committed. Then ever so slowly He began to control me terribly . I am unable go for a walk and play with my kids outdoors! And If I do, he hovers me as if to laugh at me and show me who is boss! Therefore, I am stuck indoors like a hermit! It gives me depression and anxiety. I wanna yell, "Just GO AWAY!" But, I know that he is selfish and will do whatever He wants with
NO thought as to my wants and needs! Selfish Winter!
I begin to envy those with a warmer
"relationship". As a family, we keep catching all these lovely viruses that seem to be Winter's attire and we feel so lousy- thus bringing tears and aches to my little ones. Sickness makes the cabin fever set in even more! Winter doesn't allow me to play with my friends as much- can you believe they all have sick kids too? But never at the same time. It is like HE orchestrates this way of keeping me bound to only HIM! Then when for a season, the sun comes out, I think, "Wow, maybe this is the beginning to something wonderful." But then I wake up to it's face all over my front lawn again.
WHY? Why must winter last
FOREVER???
I realize that I am the one that chose this
"relationship". In fact, what makes it worse is that I used to have a wonderful "love" with the south --Winter's enemy. South treated me to sunshine and flowers most days. When there were storms- yes, there were many, they were over so quickly and they actually left behind a lovely smell and
vibrant green grass and trees. He would serenade me every day (through all the tiny birds that I loved!)
Why did I ever leave HIM??? And now, he is with someone else. Forever gone...I feel I will always be with Winter. He is still beautiful, but somehow that beauty tends to fade with every shiver and every bite of my cheeks. I am hoping at least that He is planning a business trip soon. As soon as he does, I will be cheating on him with summer and I will not feel the least bit guilty. Oh, well. he deserves it!
Think badly of me if you will, but I just don't feel I can take HIM much longer.
Inevitably, He will return again. I know by then I will be prepared to roll down my
sleeves and put on my best smile- knowing that every so often, summer will be sneaking into my life. Patiently, I will dream and wait.
Until then,
Bring on Global warming...I need some sunshine! This relationship is lacking "heat".
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Braydon is such a fun boy! I'm so glad to have him as my son!
We had the wonderful opportunity to go to the Draper Temple Open House. It was such a neat opportunity for us and the kids. My mom and grandma- Mama Kaye, also went with us. Even though it was very busy, there truly was such a special feeling there! Mama kaye is not a member of the church. My mom was a convert. Wade asked mama kaye how she felt finally getting to see in an LDS temple. She said, "Oh, I would have gone in a long time ago had they let me." Wade said, "Oh, you are always welcome. You just have to do a few things first." It was cute. 
Wade, the kids, and me- Our Little Family. :) Our kids loved it so much! Chase even was sooo good and loved seeing the sealing room. he keeps asking to go back and see the room where we get married. It has been the sweetest thing. It really left such an impression on him! Braydon & Sommer also loved it. I am so glad that we had the opportunity to take the kids so they can aspire to return there one day. 
My mom, mama kaye, me, Sommer, & Livs- 4 generations.
I am so thankful to have the peace and blessings of the temple. And so thankful to live so close to so many! Growing up, I didn't have that, so I am especially grateful. Such a blessing to my life!
Yes, that's right! Sommer is eight years old as of March 8th! This is a very special birthday because she will be getting baptized very soon! Where does eight years go really? I must say, from the very beginning, even pregnancy, Sommer has been my easiest child! She is the only child I did not get very sick with and then she was such a good baby and from there has been the sweetest child! She has a heart of gold, that one! For her birthday, we had a big birthday bash at chuck-e-cheese with all of my family to celebrate all the family birthdays January- march. That was a great plan since there are so many of us now! Then on Saturday I took her and Livvy to Build- a- Bear workshop and then we went and picked out her baptism dress. That was so special. She and I picked the same one as our favorite, so that's the one we got. (More pictures of that to come!)
We bought the American idol game for Saturday night sing offs at our house and it is soooo fun! Our neighbors probably hate us- it gets pretty loud! :) Here is my sweet little Sommer singing her song. She is so good, too, and if you don't mind me bragging. (Isn't that what a blog is for???) I sure love this beautiful girl! And I just love this picture of her. Fun memories.
